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I Was Blamed for a Very Painful Experience

I was born into the Worldwide Church of God. My mother started attending about 9 years prior to my birth. My brother left home when he was 15 but my sister and I were enmeshed in the culture. Fortunately, my real father never drank the WWCG "Kool-Aid" so we had a level head in the family, especially after my parents divorced when I was seven. My mom had to make up lots of stories to be granted a divorce and she then got married to a man in the WCG. Now they could live their lies together.

I left the WCG, of my own volition, when I was 16. Needless to say, my mom and stepfather were not happy and made me feel plenty of guilt. They would say things like, "We thought you were the good child" or "We thought you had better sense and would follow in our footsteps." Give me a break!

About 1 ½ years after leaving, I was invited to a party with some of my old friends from the WCG. After the party, one of the members of the WCG, a man 13 years older than me who had an unusual interest in the young teen group, tried to rape me. Fortunately, I got away after a very rough battle and his attempt at strangling me. I had bruises all over my body and throat. I hid what happened from everyone. A few months later, it came out (through a friend of mine that I confided in) and I had to speak with my mom about the incident. She couldn't believe someone from her "church" would do something like this, someone she considered another son. She asked me what I was wearing that day…blue jeans and crew-neck sweater. She was looking to place the blame on me, not anyone from her beloved WCG. She honestly did not believe what I was telling her and only until she spoke to my step-dad that night did she finally listen. My stepfather supported me and put his foot down with my mom but even this caused family problems. She kept trying to convince him that this man was a good person; luckily he didn't buy into it very much.

I won't go into any more details of the story except to say that my mom was, and still is, so warped by her beliefs that she will always choose the "church" above anything or anyone else. We had many difficult years after that incident but eventually we got through them and I forgave her, or rather, I accepted her and her thinking. She is still in one of the offshoots of WWCG and as she gets older, she gets angrier and more defensive. I think it has been proven over and over again that the end time hasn't arrived or numerous other false prophecies they preach of, that she is mad at the world and is not taking any personal responsibility for her choices. We have gone back and forth over the years, usually with a close relationship, but if I question any of their beliefs or stand up for myself, then the fights begin again.

At 48 years of age, I am finally realizing just how much her warped beliefs impact every aspect of her life and her relationship with her kids and family. I know in my heart that I am more enlightened and spiritual than she can ever hope to be. People in these groups are judgmental, hypocritical and prejudiced. It's very sad to witness.

By Beverly - Child survivor of WCG
February 10, 2013

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